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Things Said And Things Done by fuckd, literature

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Things Said And Things Done

The Things You Do Were Perfect Not Entirely What I Was Looking For Not Entirely What I Need And It Confuses The Shit Out Of Me Why Only Settle For Complete Perfection When I Have A Perfection Of My Own Right Here, It May Not Be What I Expected But Its There And Clear And Obvious Right Here Its Too Subtle, Too Small, Too Much Its Like I Don't Care, But I Think About It All The Time I Don't Seem To Understand What Is Going On And I Have No Idea Why But Its There Right There And We'll Know What To Do

Never Know by fuckd, literature

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Never Know

I've become impossible especially when I see you looking with those fucking eyes you kill me with the way you twist all my words it makes me feel the need to lie I've become violent choking up these veins stopping my own heart with your contradicting ways could you please look away you don't need to see this he sang to me, and you said to stay away he smiled at me, and you said it's not okay then, he kisses me, theres nothing you can do then I lie, and I try but all I think about is you even though, she owns you I can't seem to keep my hands on anything he smiled, and he laughed and he listened, and he sang and you gave it

In The Now by fuckd, literature

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In The Now

Many Times I Have Drove Myself Insane All The While I Waited For One Day The Day I Know Now May Never Come My Tears I Must Squeeze Out Just To Take Away This Sting This Permanent Burn In My Useless Soul They Tossed My Heart And We Played Catch All Day And Now I Fear I Know Not Of Love It Has Been Abused By Us Too Much Never Again Will I Feel The Love I Have Felt The Love I Swore Never To Die So Many Times Is Gone, Lost And Only For Me To Look For And Find The World Is Cruel, And I Am Too Never Again Will I Hurt Like You The One Person Who Never Deserved Pain Is Suffering From My False Lost Love Wh

Why Me pt2 by fuckd, literature

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Why Me pt2

Why Me? Because when i forget, i regret Because I would rather you be happy with me, than cry once because of him Because I have always tried to understand without you asking And I've Always Been Able To Understand Because You Will Never Become Meaningless to me Because no matter what i will never want to walk away Because i know how much the little things matter Because i will Never use you Because i will let you know me Because i will never change ten reasons for you to give a shit about me giving a shit although you've let me down everytime you brought me up i can't say i havent done the same your heart will always belong to

Why Me by fuckd, literature

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Why Me

Why Me? Because when i forget, i regret Because I would rather you be happy with me, than cry once because of him Because I have always tried to understand without you asking And I've Always Been Able To Understand Because You Will Never Become Meaningless to me Because no matter what i will never want to walk away Because i know how much the little things matter Because i will Never use you Because i will let you know me Because i will never change ten reasons for you to give a shit about me giving a shit although you've let me down everytime you brought me up i know its because of him, and that collar around your neck the dead

Realise by fuckd, literature

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Realise

I sat there crying, thinking about all that i had, all that i lost and waisted, but then i realized all that i had gained. I couldn't stop thinking about the pain in my heart, why was it there, how could i let them slip the knife in me again. I stayed there, wondering if they really care, i know some people do, but not nearly as much as i care, maybe that is how i am at fault, for caring too much. Suddenly i realized, my life had been a circle, until finally the circle broke, and now i am here, finally happy, but now that i am finally happy, no one cares. I have been forgotten, like everyother time, i had become backwards once again. Proven

F A K E by fuckd, literature

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F A K E

This heart, this smile, this shine in my eye its all fake, but its fake for you don't trust what i have, i don't want to hurt someone again i know that if this doesn't change, then you will but if this does change, then you won't i'd rather hurt myself, so go the other way everything about my love right now is fake i think i feel it, but i really don't know I'm too old for crushes, too old to worry about it but its the only thing i worry about is this wrong? i am fake

A Friday In December by fuckd, literature

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why are you by fuckd, literature

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why are you

why are you here not knowing what to say i scream into your face but you just walk away you are never there when you know i'm waiting you say you keep your word well your word seems to be fading you love me you hate me make up your fucking mind you trust me you'll be there what are you trying to hide where are you when you say you'll never leave me why do you lock me up and then throw away the only key i don't understand why you lie and say you'll never lie why do you push and pull why do you love to see me cry you love me you hate me make up your fucking mind you say that you'll be there what are you trying to hi

fucking friends by fuckd, literature

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fucking friends

no where to run nothing to turn to nothing to love nothing is there anymore too many lies,too many tears you're killing me with your assumptions confusing me with your contradictions nothings there why should i care but i do and i can't help it it takes my breath, it makes me angry everything that happens just eats away at me i hold it in then i explode but in myself to never show stop trying to prove me wrong stop trying to hold me back stop taking it out on me just because you feel mad i'm tired of feeling like shit just take it all away deal with it yourself thats all i want to say you're killing me with your assumpti

who i used to be by fuckd, literature

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who i used to be

don't worrie about me you know i'll be fine i'm not who i used to be that suicidal mime why do you care now when you never cared before now that i'm different i take up your floor i talk now..alot i'm not wasted anymore i got along on my own what are you looking for now that i'm out of your cage there must be something wrong i changed who i used to be although i was myself all along you always say that you care but your never ever there you never want to hear what i have to say but then you say that you always care you just give me all this shit and expect me to deal with all of it i just want to throw you all away but

fairytale by fuckd, literature

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fairytale

who says that i'm worth it? who says that i shouldn't cry who says that i'm beutiful who says that i can fly its just a fairytale all you say to me its all a fairytale everything i see its like......... everything i see everythig i breathe everything i touch is fake like me they say that i'm not worth it they say you shouldn't try they all say that i'm ugly they say i deserve to cry its just a fairytale all you say to me its all a fairytale everything i see its like......... everything i see everything i breathe everything i touch is fake like me but it seems so real everything at once reality is a fairytale it so

dead by fuckd, literature

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dead

i lay here white as snow cold as ice and then you kiss the rose and lay it on my breast i open my eyes to see you one last time what makes you think i'm dead besides everything my yellow eyes peer into you..as you pray i don't want to let you go and i won't....i grab your hand as you shout in fear i pull you down and kiss you like i've never kissed before a few warm tears run down our cheecks as we become one the only warmpth i have i move down to your neck as everyone screams in horror now i shall keep you forever....and ever..and ever....

scars by fuckd, literature

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scars

these scars all over me they tell nothing at all but everyone has to look they all ask me questions expecting something more from everything they took they take away my happiness once they walk into that door from everything they took from me they still want something more why don't i open up the scars and give back all the pain to make you fucking understand so i fucking won't go insane i just wish it was that easy to just make this dissapear but no one else is watching because they have too much fear

randomosities by fuckd, literature

mother problems by fuckd, literature

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mother problems

you tell me all these things with nothing left to show you still call me a liar when you're the one that knows I finally told you how i've felt all these years then you push me out the door we're both in drowning tears I walked about a mile all I could feel was pain how you couldn't even listen one but he twisted your mind again I wanted to tell you forever and you say I never tried then you call me a liar when i left you alone to cry? you fucking pushed me out the door!!! why are you expecting something more? when you took everything from me yet I made your life a living hell suddenly I took everything away from you? whe

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The Iron Cross by bleak-darkness, literature

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The Iron Cross

You were standing above me I was sitting on your bed below We were frozen staring at each other And I thought you had a certain glow You sat down and moved closer There was a wierd look on your face I almost felt uncomftorable I almost rane with haste Then you smiled The feeling went away I smiled back at you I felt really special that day You reached around your neck I thought you had an itch You just sat there and smiled at me Then I heard the click I was almost in shock I couldn't believe what I was seeing A feeling I couldn't explain Came over my very being I watched you get closer It felt so good You put your arms a

101100110 by ChemicalButterfly, literature

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101100110

(…It cant be, it just cant be. There is so much to find behind this door. Why cant I look through it? The glass is broken, hanging out of its protection-shield. There were people, the ones, who said there was life behind this door. Dont get stuck before it, but also, dont get through it. At least, that's what they said to me. It isnt important to see what is going on behind the door 'it isnt important to see what is going on behind the door' I scream towards the end, looking scared towards the darkness. Surrounding me with all his powers, his glory, his dreams. No one ever told me this was behind the door no one ever told me t

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fucking friends by fuckd, literature

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fucking friends

no where to run nothing to turn to nothing to love nothing is there anymore too many lies,too many tears you're killing me with your assumptions confusing me with your contradictions nothings there why should i care but i do and i can't help it it takes my breath, it makes me angry everything that happens just eats away at me i hold it in then i explode but in myself to never show stop trying to prove me wrong stop trying to hold me back stop taking it out on me just because you feel mad i'm tired of feeling like shit just take it all away deal with it yourself thats all i want to say you're killing me with your assumpti

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About fuckd

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Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: N.S.
Shell of choice: turtle?
Skin of choice: mine
Favourite cartoon character: stewie, abe, joan, cosmo
Personal Quote: sorry

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you

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NIN

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soul calibur or zelda

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YOUR FACE!!!

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everythings alright

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Fucked Up

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I'm fucked right now...i hate it, i had a salvation, but no longer, there is nothing i want anymore i had my fill of happiness i guess, my heart mind and soul just had to change their mind just when i thought i would never change, my life, my living being is becoming hallow once again, i havent cried this much in months i was happy, i thought i was in love, but then i fucked it all up, and right now i just want to die, this time its not just boy issues, wow, all my issues are ever boy issues and family issues left him, found another guy, dont like that guy anymore, dont like anyone anymore, my old room mate turned out to be a con, she stol

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HAPPY

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yeah its definately been a while i don't have many poems, but i've been working on some songs..kind of an industrial sexual theme to them on another note... I'm getting married in 4 years and were changing our last name to Wolfe. Were not inviting family to our wedding, and all my bridesmates will be boys..but my maid of honour will be Cassie Thibau^.^ I've never been this happy before....with no sorrow what so ever...its been 3 months...and..hes a male version of me...we talk for hours.and we still never get bored^.^ this is so strange, its only inspired me to draw..not write...its hard to write about happiness without it sounding crazy

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EEEEEEEEE !
I < 33 Your poems..
^___^

Hey thanks for the fav.
Much appreciated.

hey you have some very nice prose.

if you have time, take a look at this awesome site for writing.

ublot.
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thanks

thankyou^.^ i always love new readers, although...i'm not much of a reader at all

hello back to you too.